MY LIFE!

2007-04-22T07:29:00.000-07:00

hey hey...
almost 1 yr since i post here... oh well..
if u're bored n juz wanna noe wad happened 2 me its pretty simple..

busy wif final years..n training
after tat i'm working n training more...
n den b4 i knew it..enlistment letter came when i was juz abt to watch a new episode of my fav anime... zzz sg gov such a spoiler...
oh well.. i actually made it to brown for my tkd.. not bad.. pretty fast already considering tat most ppl took 3 yrs =D

alrite..enuff abt my tkd stuff.. i''' onli tell u tat i made the rite choice by taking tat up..
lol

hmm...so i saw this gal i knew quite sometime ago.. in NJD
she stil rmb me!!! so i guess i nv change much... =S
haha.. she happen to be in the youth fellowship tat belong to the church tat i go...
hahaha... so funny.. =p
alrite... so NJD grading today n i went down to support my fren Jason!
woo..nice breaking..haha
we tried to help him film his grading but den... faik the examiner wanna keep his njd syllabus secretive.. ooooh so ninja.. lol
funny crap man.. he even say wanna send us letter for filming.. dotz -_-'''
he is rich den c'mon lets play hide n seek.. hahaha
oh boy cannot tahan.. luff 2 much already >.<
n seriously those crappy stuff they were doing for the grading cannot even be considered kicks..
its more lyk swinging ur legs without control.. -_-
this kinda crap who will wanna learn.. =X
but still some ppl go on.. haiz..

i'm not saying tat NJD is bad..
juz tat some are really really bad.. rotten apples tat spoil the name of the art or wadeva it is...
some black belts i noe they r good.. those r really gd..
the diff in standard.. such a joke..

1 more thing.. how come faik put sg flag on his shoulder? lol

in any case... my brown 1 grading is 3 mths away..
if u guys wanna c the diff in standard let me noe..
n if u guys wanna join my club i'll be glad to intro u to my coach =D

Taekwondo is my life.. =D

2006-07-30T20:36:00.000-07:00

i have to be responsible for what i have done
i will not regret making this decision
i know what i really want in life now
i will have to work towards that
because you are doing ur best as well
i will have to try to do better
that is our dream
it is our future
a future that i share with u
we will show them that we can achieve that
we have to show them that we can make it
we are meant to be together
i dream of u every nite
each morning i wake up to train even harder..
i will keep my promise to you

2006-07-23T09:55:00.000-07:00

5th E-grading is over!!
hoooooo....
forget abt the unhappy events...
time for a gd celebration...

then hopefully i can recover faster...
still coughing...haiz...

oh well...got my new pet already and they are eating well...
maybe a little too well... LOL

in anyway...simply love Life...Life that the Lord granted me... =)

Janice...2pid ger...lol
my best 2pid ger...nv forget u...n i can't!
coz u r my 2pid ger mah... LOL
u will always be the little junior i noe.. =)
although i got my precious gf liao...but i nv forget u k...lol
juz tat i nv think of u...i nv did...hahaha
wad u expect...got time to think...sure think of my gf mah...
wun u 1 ur bf to think of u? lol....tats y u r the 2pid ger we all noe... =)
but...u r one of the nicest frens i hav =D

Sometimes life is full of joy
At times it is filled with misery
But life is what we make out of it
I have chosen to walk down this path with the Lord, my shepherd
With faith, I shall live each day
I accept the Gift
Waiting for the Day to arrive...

Trust and friendship once broken is hard to restore

2006-07-10T10:18:00.000-07:00

It is about PEACE & HARMONY, it is not for fighting, it is for self-defense, it is for cultivating our mind, body and soul
It is about BALANCE in everything in our life

It is about COURAGE in the face of adversity

It is about SPEED
It is about POWER
It is about PRECISION
It is about ACCURACY
It is about CONTROL, to stay in control of situation not matter how bad it is and turn it to our advantage, never let the 7 sentiments cloud our judgements

It is about RESPECT, to respect everything from all walk of life, even the lowest creature
It is about TOLERENCE towards others who have incurred our wrath
It is about BENEVOLENCE, to forgive and forget wherever possible
It is about SINCERITY, to treat everyone without putting on a false front, not back stabbing people and talking behind others

It is about DISCIPLINE
It is about PROPRIETY
It is about RIGHTEOUSNESS

It is about GRACE, each move is to be graceful and also to be graceful to others
It is about SWIFTNESS, think fast act fast
It is about the FLOW OF MOTION, everything is linked
It is about PATRIOTISM towards our country
It is about LOYALTY toward friends
It is about FILIAL PIETY, respect elders and treat them like your own family members
It is about RELIABILITY
It is about MODESTY, there will always be others who are better than us
It is about FRUGALITY, use only what we need
It is about PRIDE in everything we do
It is about INSPIRATION to aim high
It is about the WAY OF LIFE

It is about everything, not just a sport or to acquire power and you know non of these...
It is not a sport where we go for competition and tournaments...
It is not about grade, it is also not about how well we can kick, punch, or fight
It is not about how many medals we can win
It is a philosophy... a Way of Life... that Calvin and David sir enlightened me...

It is a Way that many of us will strive to understand and put it into our life and continue to pursue

2006-07-04T06:24:00.000-07:00

the hour to rush for the final report is here n yes...i'm rushing to get it done
but some parts still remain unclear. will get it done asap
with other presentations coming up... i wished the Lord gave us 48 hours n not 24 lol
y 24 anyway? lol
will juz hav to skip a few trainings n hope i dun get picked by master...
switching from coffee to tea...coz coffee doesn't keep me awake anymore...
ytd training was hell...
my feet got blisterSSSSS...
so painful..gotta let the liquid out n let it dry...so tat it heal faster...
n tat means i cannot wear covered shoes... so i didn't go for class today... shit man...
no bread...no $$$$
lol...
rusydi beginning to sound lyk forday already.. lol
hmm...bread... =P

still couldn't walk very well today...
the blisters are hurting badly...
i cannot bandage it lar... >_<
y so many blisters...fuck...

entering the next tournament? i sure hope so

2006-06-28T08:46:00.000-07:00

Why so dusty?
omg...

I've been kind of sad lately, not because my classmate got a kitten and his having fun right now.
But because it brought back memories that I shared with my dogs.
Life has to move on, but I will never forget the fun we had together.

With so many project due dates approaching, I could only turn to is Taekwondo to relieve stress.
It may be a sport in Singapore, but a few of us at the club definitely don't take it that way.

Received a sms telling me that I have to turn up for training today ( I usually don't attent wed training unless I am needed there.)
Was told that I have to help out a trainee who missed six months worth of training prepare for this upcoming tournament. Not that I am unwilling to help out, but he hasn't been putting in effort into training, irregular attendence, no sense of responsibility towards Taekwondo, cannot commit to training, doesn't give a damn to fellow trainees and last of all, "si bei guai lan"
After some "internal struggle" (my angel n devil fighting each other), I eventually turned up for the training. I have to admit that either Calvin coach is very relax with him or thinks that Ji Sheng cannot make it. Reasons why I think that? Our usual training is at least 2X tougher then that T_T
Then came the good part, I was called to sparred with him. Usually when we spar with those "fighters" we try to go tougher on them. Well, that was what I did, even though I knew that I could have won him hands down. Anyway, i tried to test him. But after the third kick landed on him, he couldn't take it any more. -_-'''
He lowered his guard and started rubbing his forearms and whined!!! >_<
And there I was, so tempted to kick his head off his shoulder, which I didn't. But he got a lashing from Calvin and David coach though. =D Serves him right. Orbi orbi.. lol

In school, I guess that people change. No doubt, people are always like that.
Well... I cannot even be bothered to talk or look at some of them. But sometimes I have to, and they give me the sickening attitude. Some of them thinks that they are "so great". But they are not, because they are so petty and that is going to give them trouble when they go out to work.
He don't realise that the problem does not lie with me, but him!
Perhaps it all began from a simple misunderstanding? He didn't ask, how would I know? -_-''
Like I care...he is not the Lord, I don't need him.
But I know that deep down inside, I know that I didn't do anything wrong.
If it was because of that incident that happen last year, somewhere during our exams, I know that I will still choose to make that decision again if I have to, for his own good. Even though I knew at that time that he might not like it and we may never be as close as we used to be. But I will still make that decision. Because I take him as a buddy, and he still is. Even though he treats me like shit now. He was never "understanding" enough, that was one of the many reasons his Ex left for another guy.
Good luck my friend =)

Friendship once lost, is hard to recover

more to do

2006-05-01T08:43:00.000-07:00

just removed the bandaged from the trip to the chinese doctor yesterday
the reason i need to visit that doctor again?
i sprained my joints... yes, i sprained my joints
all thanks to the tkd grading
but its worth it...i juz got a double =)
yes i m nuts
totally mad about tkd?
am i? maybe just a little
maybe just enough to take my mind off family problems
how i envy those with a nice family
we need not talk much, but its how we treat each other tats impt
come to think of it...mine is not tat bad...i think...
i just lost the money that was meant to be used to buy an external harddisc -_-
the worse thing is tat i lost the money in the house!
it was kept in my drawer n it can be lost..
wads the world coming to?
this is not the 1st time my money went missing...
the suspect? my bro...duh... =he has been buying lots n lots of cards
those trading cards -_-'''
when i say lots...i mean it
he bought so much that those super thick card albums are not enough and he has more than 2 of those albums...
i would say tats a waste of money -_-
my parents also lost money in the house =X
the amount lost was enough to buy a new GBA
n my bro happen to hav a GBA in his room... the thing is tat we nv buy tat for him
given the fact tat his daily allowance is not a lot, how izzit possible for him to buy so much stuff?
its very disturbing... considering tat even the house is no longer safe?
my money went missing n my mum can still try to blame me for it! wtf! >_<
its my money tat went missing! how is it possible for me to steal my own money?!?!
my dad's reaction? was there even a reaction from him?! NO!
he only said that its impossible for money to go missing!
but the fact is that my money already went missing!!!!
it doesn't make any sense at all...
its not the 1st time...
this kind of things cannot go unchecked >_<
wait till i lay my hands on tat thief...
i will make him/her pay....
i will hand tat fella over to the cops for sure

alrite...i'm still feeling so frustrated... >_<
well...having removed my bandages, i can finally settle down to get some work done...

my family recently kept playing mahjong...
seriously...dun ever ask me wad it is...coz it doesn't make any sense to me
it muz be addictive...reason?
the did not prepare any food just because they wanted to play mahjong lor -_-
so ke lian de me...no food to eat..
wad to do...eat out lar...n worse thing is i gotta eat alone.. T_T

n somehow MEL is down again...wtf @_@
always down...useless system
tmr gonna be another long day =life of a student...

...sth wrong wif me?

2006-04-29T07:48:00.000-07:00

a new academic term has started... again...
well.. hav to say tat i m still not used to poly life...
wtf is wrong wif me?
dun ask me...
i seriously hav no idea wads going on...
i m really sorry if i made any of u unhappy
if i did anything wrong pls forgive me

to rus (if u still come here...) :
sry tat i m falling sick on n off...
will try to recover asap so tat i can finish the FYP... =)
will heed ur advise...trying to change...
i will continue to walk down this road... n emerge a better man..
thx alot.. sry i'm such a jerk =(
hope we're still frens...tho i noe i hav no right to ask tat
if u think tat there r areas tat i shud change...juz tell me straight

to all my friends:
i m sry if i m kinda depressed n aloof...
guess i juz need sometime to get over it...
if i did sth tat made u guys angry or unhappy...
i hope its not to late to say sry

i m a simple n easy going lil' fella
i juz 1 2 hav frens...
frens whom i can hang out wif...
simple? i dun think this is easy to achieve...
i would say tat a good fren is hard to come by... not to mention tat a buddy will be harder

have been falling sick on n off the past few weeks
to tell the truth... i din exactly do very well for the previous semester...
have not been sleeping well...
reason? its my family...
i hav not told many ppl except frens i considered buddy...

it seems tat my family is still picking on me...
it started b4 my grandpa pass away =
after he is gone...it simply became worse
i duno y...i tried asking...no direct answers...
i m not close to them... coz tats wad they molded me into =izzit my fault? yes... i shud hav tried harder to communicate wif them
i m still trying, but i hardly get the chance to talk to them
even when i do... its when i got scolded or blamed for sth i din do...
i guess tats life..
because of tat i hav been losing sleep...spending each nite in deep thoughts
maybe eating out for every meal wasn't too gd for my health?
but wad can i do? they nv cook for me.. T_T
n if i were to cook... they will scold me again... >_< wtf!
bo bian...eat out lor =S
so i guess tat 2 reasons above has been causing me to fall sick on n off
haiz... perhaps because of tat i hav been trying to occupy myself wif tkd
i began keeping to myself n more withdrawn... =/
maybe some of u find tat i juz follow ard n u guys dun lyk it...
i m sry... i juz realise tat... hope its not too late =(
i juz thought tat i would be rude of me to juz say things out...? my bad...
i m trying to change... will u guys help me? will anyone help me?
perhaps it is too late... i can only blame myself for being such a pathetic maggot
because of tat i hav lost many frens
frens who were hard to come by
i din realise wads happening till its too late

i'm sorry...

2006-03-21T08:06:00.000-08:00

omg.....only another 3-4 days b4 results come!
fark...wad have i done...
so gan chiong now...i noe i screwed it up...
haiz...n now FYP!
wtf is wif singapore...
study study study...wth..
y i cannot take tkd as my course of study... >_<

haiz...
i m injured allover..
asking rus where to get tat ointment...
my elbow gonna hav at least 2 new scars!
den my hip oso blu black >_<
my knees...both oso bruised...
the in-step of my left foot...is bruised.. definitely gonna leave scars behind...
i could see my bone through the little layer of flesh...hohoho
kinda yucky...but i nv seen my bones b4!!!

these are left behind from the hours of trainings that i have went through to prepare for the demo tat my tkd club is gonna hav =really gan chiong oso...
my ankle still hurts... I need a cleric! lol...
too much maple definitely has its side-effect...
y can't 7-11 sell tat farkin ointment... =/
my darling 1 2 bandage me up lyk a mummy...
love me so much 1 2 preserve me...
kinda scary oso... hahaha

the 2pid champion cup is coming up as well...
got lots to be done...
the bloody organizer no experience de...
den now left poor yong quan to do everything...
jia you! i'll help u dude...
hope to make the event a success..

finally gugu update her blog...
so dam dusty...
see those pictures liao..
wa liao...
would hav want to go lor...
tat place seem so fun!
regretted not going siah...
but den again...i dun 1 2 leave my darling behind mah..
gugu u understand rite...
i think if i go there i will miss her till i siao lor.. =P
go get a job lar...
if tat guy irritate u...
i think u can ask other shushu to help u oso...
wahahaha...
i hav enuff shushu to form a battalion.. =P

2006-03-11T08:57:00.000-08:00

haiz...
examz over!
so am i suppose to be happy or shud i not?
y? dun farking ask me y....
coz NP sux...we got FYP to settle rite after our papers...
cheezebun... where got lyk tat de
nabei...so farked up lor...

getting on it...
as i work on it i curse NP...
more lyk chanting loads of vulgarities scolding NP n those bunch of idiots...
make my life so miserable...

haiz..
today downloaded a new song n was lyk listening to it the whole day...
den worked on the report... nabei..

haiz..mee diao...ah ma....manchu....
those were the days ya?
lol...when nam nam n i always join u celine and ibnu..
den we cok together...
lol...miss u guys so much...
when can we gather again n fool ard?
miss those good old days when we sit in the canteen b4 flag raising...den u ppl copy hw...
den i study for my tests.... den hav flag raising.... i'm a patriot k... >_<
n i remember those days when u sit behind me den always pinch n tickle me... bad memories...
den in class i always do nth but A-maths...
den eat in class...u ppl buy food back for me coz ong lai nv let me go recess...
hahaha...u ppl fed me so well tat i was pretty baba back then...
den so fair...no time to get in the sun...
den i look so nerdy...hahaha
den in class always fool ard once i get the chance....
everyday was stressful coz of tat ong lai...but fun coz i hav u guys...
now i noe wad my poly life is missing...
haiz...
remember tat there was once where i teach u maths 1/2 way den u so guai lan bite me..
wth...y u do tat lor..
lucky skin thick! =D
but jie jie bite me till i bled..
den b4 i go for F&N class i always looking for nailcutter...coz i nv cut.. >_<
den every fri we forget to bring chinese storybook..
sometime we forget abt our badge...lol
den after sch we go hangout..
sometime i got A-maths test or wadeva den u guys stay back wait for me..
after tat we go plaza there n stone...
den got 1 time jiejie got duno wad den we sneak out n buy her presents den go back giv her...
wahahaha...
den sometime we go out eat le den i gtg back for test or wadeva..
ooh...there were time when u guys got maths remedials n tests...
then i was exempted...hahaha...den i stay back for tat test..
i went late...den end up i finish it earlier than u guys den i lend u ppl to copy..
hahaha...
den there was another time when all of us gotta stay back for a pre-mock prelim...
hahaha...it was raining lyk shyt siah...i ran home without an umbrella
den so cold... hahaha...next day fell sick...
den gota back tat paper i let all of u beat... coz i got 95/100
lol...
during the O it was lyk dam relax compared to now...
haiz..
when i sat for the A-maths paper i keep asking for more paper..
den u ppl were lyk so dam stressed..all were lyk wad the hell !?!?!?!?
after the F&N paper was the prom night le..!
no time to prepare!
but it was fun nonetheless
those were the days...
lol...chasing each other in class...
den run to nam nam den smack him or ga jiao him den run to you for help...
or when u ppl come after me i gotta run for my life..
c'mon lor... 4 or 5 against me...
i no where to run siah.. -_-
kena cornered liao den u ppl tickle me till i heigu...
nabei... so scary lor...
those gd old days where we spend so much time fooling ard...
driving our teachers nuts...
haiz...
miss tat ibnu..nam nam..celine..
next time we go out together muz get them..
see ibnu call him MISSY! nurse wad... lol
when will we go out again?

haiz...this is sth tat i dun get in poly...
rite don?
agree wif u man...somehow we dun get this kinda frens tat we used to...not lyk sec sch..

renu!

2006-02-20T08:55:00.000-08:00

omg problem with renu contact lense solution!
recently my eyes very itchy...den i stop wearing my contact lenses for this period of time...
lucky siah...
hope i wun have any problem with my eyes.. >_<
so scary..

hmm...getting the hang of not wearing glasses during sparring le...
but i dun dare to let go n spar...
i scared later i injure my opponent... -_-'''
haiz...

examz coming...so stress...
no pimples popping out yet....
just mentally tired...
no matter how much i slp its not enough...

hmm...mummy threw the solution away le...now dunno how.. -_-'''
sianz...

2006-02-19T19:25:00.000-08:00

oh fuk..wadeva..
examz nxt week..
gotta eat more books >_<
hmm...
parents bias...always ask me to do this n that..
even though i m busy... >_<
my bro so free..dun ask him do...wtf
so bias lor...wadda do...
haiz...
actually i'm getting used to it liao lar...
they have always been lyk tat since i could remember..

my examz coming so we got study break to study at home..
so they keep asking me to do this n that...
wtf...why dun they ask their precious son to do it..
m i not their son?
why such different treatment?
he get new clothes n wadeva he wants...
i get sth special from them also...scolding...tons n tons of it..

i tried treating them well..
they took it for granted...
they nv treat me lyk their son...
but at least i have a shelter over my head..
clothes to keep me warm..n food to eat...

but yet..i nv felt any warmth from this family..
i'm so jealous of others...yet i noe tat i can be considered fortunate...

they expect me to take care of them when they are old...wad abt my bro?
he gotta take care of them too...
they nv said anything abt it..
i'm treated so poorly...yet they expect so much from me..
they treat him lyk super good..yet they expect nothing from him...
haiz...

can't even stay at home to study...
bring my darling home oso got so much trouble..wth

my mum..always ask me to do housework...
never even ask my bro to help...
expect me to finish everything when i m so stressed..
she nv wanted to compromise...
haiz...wadeva...
i dun care anymore..
she dun 1 2 ask my bro to help? den i wun do oso >_<

fear...

2006-02-16T07:39:00.000-08:00

I am scared
what of? you might ask
I don't know
I don't know what is it that send fear rippling through my heart
that feeling coursing through my body
i can't help it
what is it that i m afraid of?
i seriously don't know
that feeling is simply spine wrenching..
i have no i dea what is causing it
examz? TKD? relationship?
i seriously dun think so..
its driving me nuts...

perhaps if i ignore it..it might go away?
hahaha...i'll try

hmm...i will train harder in my tkd..
haha..
btw i wear contact lenses during training..
but i realise that i already have what it takes to spar
so why not take it to a higher level?
spar without my glasses or contact lenses =)
tats what i thought
oh well..
juz in case i got ambushed or wad so eva...
hahaha..
juz to train myself such tat i can still fight without my glasses.. =D
they are kinda troublesome u noe...
to hone my senses n reflexes...to push myself to the limit >_<
to learn how to control my strength..

during the hols i'll train 6 hours a day... >_<
excluding sunday of coz...hahaha
i'll train with gugu (dun run...i'll help u...hahaha)
on some days i'll go out with darling..
other than that, i'll train..
i'll push myself to the limit >_<

but in the meantime...i'll chiong my examz.. >_<

2006-02-15T09:22:00.000-08:00

hmm...exams are over...for now...
next week is break...to prepare for FINALS
week after next is my FINAL EXAM!
omg...going nuts... >_<

just now tat match before class end... i pulled back so much...
shout louder niah..
den they say i nv pull back... =(
c'mon...i'm trying hard n learning how to pull back as much as i can already..
this is the 2nd time i spar without glasses...
n tats y i keep missing... =X
think i scored 0 points... =(
if i wear glasses/ never pull back tat guy is dead!
why no1 believe me? T_T
it doesn't help when u ppl keep saying tat i din pull back...
i dun nid so many of u to tell me tat i nv pull back
it would be better if u guys can tell me how to pull back more... teach me..
i'm trying very hard to pull back...
shout loud does not mean i kick hard..
so stop nagging tat i din pull back...
i m training "soft" on it...someone help me....! T_T

no1 trust tat i pulled back...not even darling... =(

really sad...after tat match i went to sit down
den u ppl keep saying...i really pull back alot le lor...
why can't you ppl believe me... >_<
if its lyk tat i rather dun spar... den wads the point of learning TKD >_<

after class i asked sir for advice on how to pull back...
den wanted to go back to change my clothes...
only to see Yong Quan so close to darling...so jealous... >_<
i dunno why i feel this way...when i change my clothes...
tat Yong Quan keep saying tat i nv pull back...
scare all the kids n stuff... say tat i lyk 1 2 kill those kids lyk tat...
keep saying so much crap
i already said tat i pulled back...
since u guys dun believe me den i also dun 1 2 talk about it anymore...
say so much for wad?nobody believe tat i got pull back wad...
talk so much for wad...?

worse thing is tat even darling oso help Yong Quan... T_T
I really cannot take it...
i really felt lyk crying at tat point of time...
i m really tired... all the exams n shit...maybe going crazy ba...so stressed...

I can't take it anymore...
I'm so tired...what should i do... T_T

2006-02-12T08:11:00.000-08:00

hmm...tmr got a paper and i m blogging?
tats coz its for my Charlene gugu (little aunt)...
she has been lyk a princess in the Big Family...
we kinda grew up together... though we usually see each other only during CNY
she is very pretty...lyk all my other aunts (duh...) she is my aunt wad...it runs in the family..
though i must admit i inherited that tint of blurness... =(
oh well...back to the main point...
she has been attached to this guy for lyk...er...God knows how long..
and this guy is lyk...er...over possessive...
now she is going kinda nutty abt it...sad huh...

pardon my limited vocab...have been try to work on it...
at least i dun go ard scolding F**K...
unlike someone... LOL! =X
upgrading my cotton brain...filling it with love and less of those evil stuff... =)
thats thanks to my darling... =]

okok...so i m off the topic again...
FINE! smack me lar! i m made from top-grade cotton...i wun feel physical pain... =D

to Charlene
aka. Princess Woody Bubble Horny Talisman Tail :
( for now... *panting... such a long title...)
hey ger! ur taggy too short to post everything lar...so i post it here...see le tag k...den i update again... =P
so in the meanwhile....just bear it with me k..

din noe that u had some problems tat fri lor...
if not ask u to accompany me for my dinner... =D
so long nv eat with u le...
fold a turtle for me again k...hahahaha...
n teach me how to fold a butterfly oso wor... >_<
i forgot how to do it the day after u taught me... =P
still say...ur fault lar...infected my ur blurness...
wadda do it runs in our blood rite...LOL!
u think i m more matured den u ar...
its lyk duh.... =P
ok lar...i m when i need to...
i still a kid k...
dun expect too much from me... >_<
stressful life of singapore....when will i get over it... >.< argh.....
if he is nice to you and still is...and you find him possessive...den...
tell him nicely...
if he realy loves you, then he should change and stop doing those stuff to you and your frens...
but then again...
if the frens tat u r mixing with are lyk ah beng/ah seng...
or if u r dressing lyk...too...revealing? den can't blame him...
though i dun believe you are that kinda gal...
always believed tat my gugu is a nice n sweet gal tats kinda conservative...
though i dunno wad u mean by 'playing' with ur frens, but perhaps you should watch ur steps as well...
if you are really getting physically too close, or perhaps he is just too conservative...
you noe...just watch wad u r doing lor... =)
hope u r not holding a guy's hand n hope that he wun mind tat.... >_<

coz got 2 guy keep disturbing my darling also...
i told them to keep off...
1 was from her sch...the other was from tkd...
she din lyk both...not frens...nth...
n they keep calling n disturbing her...so its alrite for me to chase them away n protect her...
in ur case...tat person is ur fren? close fren? guy rite? =u should advise ur guy not to do tat lor...coz if he do tat to me...i might report him to police liao...

dun think there is a problem with the way u dress ar... =/
wad duh hell he wants? wear a spacesuit so no one can touch n see u ar? >_<
i only told my darling to be careful when she is wearing a skirt... =X
scared she careless den...ya..u noe the rest lar...

you 2 got sit down and talk anot?
it might get it over and done with...for ur own good...
either solve the problem...or get over it... =understand anot...? wei...dun go teary over this k... >_<
later eyes puffy den not nice le... =(
if you ask him anything and he only "mm...mm..."
den say him lar...wads the problem...instead of making u happy...giv u so much trouble... >_<

dun worry u got US! got jiajia gugu n many gugus... =)
got me to maple with u...if i got time.. =p

c'mon...u deserve a guy better than him...
i dunno...i haven met him b4... n i better dun...coz if he ill treat my gugu... i will scold him up down left rite n center...
i dunno if he is nice looking or wadeva...
i dunno wad draws u to him...
there are guys out there who will treat u way better...
u see...u r smart n pretty...talented...duh...my gugu wad...
there are lots of guys for u to choose from...
the one thats meant for u...
are u sure its him?
the one that will complement you and make u happy everyday
the one that you think of most of the time..the one who cared for you...
who standby you when u r down...
if it is not him den...
i dunno...its your life...u decide wad to do k...
just dun hurt urself again...
sometime...its better to hurt ppl lyk him...wakes them up...make them realise what they have missed...

this kinda thing choose carefully lor...
u r our BIG PRINCESS you noe...
if this kinda sad thing happen alot of us will feel sad for u oso de lor... =(

u r young...going 20!
still young...dun waste time on such a guy if he is not good enough for you...

I remember that I started out with my darling ard the same time as u n tat guy....
hmm...
since that day...
my darling was only unhappy coz she thought i dun care for her and dun love her anymore...
first time :
was at a TKD exchange program...
coz i lost to a 2nd Dan black belt...
was pretty shocked...tats why i nv talk to her...was trying to get over it...
alone...how silly...i realised i shouldn't have done so alone...
she thought sth happen to me and got so worried..

2nd time:
coz i was late...caught in the traffic...n she could not find me when she got down to her void deck... she was worried n she cried...
kinda silly...i noe...but it shows that she cares alot for me.. =)
she called from the cc and asked where i was...i could hear that her voice was trembling...i rushed over...i just reached her void deck...den i rushed over immediately...
both of us was worried sick abt each other... >_<
she thought i dun care for her tats y she can't find me...
n i thought she was kidnapped or sth...
lol...in the end i coax her n pamper her...
and we spend the day happily...
since then...such a crazy thing nv happen again... NEVER WILL! >_<
i let her knew how important she is to me and that i really love her alot... =)
her parents knew abt us... and nv oppose us... =)

since then we have been happy till now...
i only discouraged her from mixing with bad companies...
protect her from those ppl...
tats all...

i think that your boyfriend feels insecured ba...
coz he has no confidence in himself...
n coz u r too good...
he scared later u let ppl snatch away.. so he is overly "protective"

wadeva it is...if u dun love him anymore...than make it short...
dun let it drag on..coz you will end up blaming urself if u see him hurt badly when its not ur fault... =if u dun think tat he is tat suitable for u den let it end lor..
since he dun even dare to let his parents know abt the relationship...
c'mon he should be feeling lucky that u r his galfren lor...
he should have treated u better n cherish u more...

at the end of the day...it is ur life...
do wad u want with it...it ur own choice...wad u decide..will affect the outcome
dun hurt urself...
we're rooting for you!

alrite...tats all for now... hehehe... can't imagine taggy all these...or worse...sms...
i think my free sms used up liao lor...so long...hahaha =X

My Life the way I want it to be...

2006-02-06T08:54:00.000-08:00

I always believed that If you want to do something, do your best
If not, don't bother to waste your time and other people's time
If you don't do well, you have only yourself to blame...

Treat people the way you want to be treated
Do not look down on others, because you are no where better
It doesn't hurt to be good to people around you

Live life as if there is no tomorrow
Cherish the people around you, because you never know when they will leave you
Respect each other and treat them like you would your own family
We can make this world a better place to live in

this is my way...
this is my life...
this is my world...
it revolves around me...
in my life...i am the leading actor...
i m the main character...

i seek the best ending for me and the one I love...

when you bitch about other people, they might be doing the same thing to you

you have no right to judge others, because you are nothing
you have no right to laugh at others, because you are just as bad

without you, this world will still keep spinning and life will still go on...
how much are you worth?
are you even worth anything?
what makes you think that you are that great?
Because compared to others, you are nothing
don't mess with me...

i may look like a pup from far...
but if u get too close u, will see who i really am...
what i really am...

wad you see may not necessarily be the truth...
always look at things from a different perspective...
just because i dun get angry doesn't mean that i wun...

DON"T MESS WITH MY LIFE!

because only a fool will try his luck with me

wth...

2006-02-03T10:24:00.000-08:00

eh..at least i not lyk Don k...
lol...

even comic oso monthly de wad..
magazines oso lor...

so u guys stayed for the DNA pendant booth for how long...
shiok mah?
after i left got chio bu anot?
i was already late lor...
haiz..if i knew tat so many ppl nv turn up i wun giv it a dam lor...
so GY...waste so much of my time...
haiz..
could have slept the whole day lor..

so u ppl collected alot of ang bao for CNY anot?

CT2 and other stuff coming up liao...how?
gan chiong siah...
cannot take it lar..
so tiring lor...

I NEED A BREAK!

this week got no tkd training..
so sianz...
so slack...eat n get fat niah
hahaha..
lots of pineapple tarts..n wadeva snack i could lay my hands on... =p

lets eat!
eat n grow fat wif me =)

depressed

2006-01-20T08:23:00.000-08:00

kinda feeling low rite now...
dun ask y..coz its between me n darling...
but i noe she will nv read this... =i dunno whether to be happy or sad... reason is because i love her....but is it wrong of me to get worried over the kind of frens she mixes ard wif?

haiz...kept thinking of her today...
n i forgot that ABC n INSTRU lecture was cancelled..
blur as usual..

I'm really emotionally unstable right now...
sometime just feel like crying...but it doesn't change a thing..
and no one cares...
not my family...they nv did...

lost my wallet..

2006-01-18T08:43:00.000-08:00

finally got my new phone...a W800i
but i lost my wallet juz now >.<
while i was going for dinner before meeting visiting my senior
and i lost it on the SBS bus somemore.. >.<
simply can't believe it lor..how can i be so careless...haiz..
so i went to the SBS to lodge a report...tell them tat i lost my wallet...
the staff tat served me..so lazy n useless...not willing to help at all...
tats y i dun lyk to take SBS buses...
i wonder if ppl tat lost their stuff on SBS buses did they get it back anot...
those that did, how many of them were returned by SBS?
haiz... inefficiency, poor service, bad attitude...
i nv got any help from them at all.. 2pid... >.<
den the number they gave me to call was always engaged..
simply pissed me off...
finally reached home..tot i could rest de..
who know end up my mum keep scolding...
she juz dun understand...haiz..

hp expire tmr

2006-01-17T05:48:00.000-08:00

hmm...today tat ABC test so 2pid...i really go n memorize the whole page lor...wth..
den end up onli afew blanks here n there...sianz...
then the prac was lyk super long...omfg
cannot finish...
den i pair up with DON somemore...
2 gan chiong king together...wad u get...
lots of hurrying of each other...scurrying of feets..lol
oh yea...my hp gonna expire tmr...
den i can change to the 1 tat i have been eyeing for lyk so long...
hahaha =D
tmr got tkd...finally darling got her poome gi =)
so happy for her.. =)
go see the gi tat time let her use my phone to call the instructor...
tho he knew tat we were together for quite some time...but...kinda wierd.. =p
he is a nice instructor...kinda like a joker...one tat kick ass -_-
LoL... =p
hmm...
as usual.. DON, KIM HENG, RUSYDI, MICK was lyk scandling here n there in class...
esp DON n MICK... lol
jokers lar...
hahaha...
tat mick super idiot lar...
practical..walk here n there ga jiao us... >.<
den now still got the ABC free-topic presentation...
n the ACMB presentation i'm looking forward to..
wahahaha...
lots to do...after tat is exam again... fuk NP =x

2006-01-15T07:57:00.000-08:00

hmm...
life is so tiring...what are we aiming for?
izzit worth it?
why does it mean so much to us?
what is the most important thing in our life?
who is the most important person in our life?
whats gonna hppen if we lose it?
how long can we live to enjoy life with them?

i noe wad my answers are...
n i noe wad to do...

but m i on the rite track?

i m all worn out..
so tired...
but i know i can always count on u guys to be here for me...

2006-01-14T09:40:00.000-08:00

ok...
grading finish...
got promoted...
blah blah blah...
kinda pissed...but darling always manage to make me smile...haha =D
den taught her maths...
er...play..den we watch cartoons... =p
it was lyk...omg...so funny
hmm...got her a milk bottle..n she drank from it...
so cute..n she so happy...
she simply loves it..
well...treated her lyk a baby lor..

then along came IS...
IS sux...its a waste of my time...
oh well...anyway..gonna train harder to promote faster...
those reports are also a waste of time... *yawnz
darling is so gonna kill me if i dun slp...
well...tats all... but b4 i go...

here is a story of our 'beloved' Kim Heng n his 'hubby' Rusydi:

it all took place quite sometime ago..
apparently...Kim Heng dumped Don, one of our classmates, for Rusydi!
how sad isn't it... aw...
n so it goes that Kim Heng n Rusydi were together happily...
always together.. became the scandling couple of the class...
but yesterday Rusydi wanted a break-up...and Don was lyk so happy...fishy? LOL..
n we saw Kim Heng sa jiao...
if u ever saw a gal sa jiao n u were melted...giving in to them...
then i bet u r gonna laugh ur guts out when u see them sa jiao with each other.. =D

if you 1 2 noe wtf happen next...
be sure to visit here...
it will be updated daily on weekdays

I&E sux

2006-01-12T08:21:00.000-08:00

omfg...was informed early in the morning abt the sudden change of date for presenting our "beautiful business plan"
2pid KLK he sux...
onli 8 ppl turned up for class 2dae...2pid lor...
oh well..anyway...we presented..den he talk so much crap...
i 1 2 go n meet darling lor..
den he keep crapping...
oh well...
2pid I&E...

so much to do yet so little time liao..
still gimme a I&E...
and a 2pid leacturer tat wun stop talking made it worse...
projects almost dued..
hw to be submitted...
grading this sat..
CT2 coming...
this sux...
i nid a break...

how i wish i can turn all of them into jollybean mascot and roll them down a slope =p
LOL...i'm seriously going cranky....

my dobok haven dry...tmr muz wake up n iron...fuk siah...
so dam irritating..
keep raining..
den clothes cannot dry properly...2pid...

finally back for u guys

2006-01-11T09:21:00.000-08:00

Alright, since you guys asked
Here it is then =)
took the blog off to make some adjustments
no one tag anyway...
so i tot no 1 mah
ok..so now its back le..
haha...
nice mah?
i make de wor... =)
haha...
juz finish washing 2 sets of dobok >_<
hand pain now...
wun type le...
my darling 1 me to sleep early.. =x