Saturday, April 29, 2006
well.. hav to say tat i m still not used to poly life...
wtf is wrong wif me?
dun ask me...
i seriously hav no idea wads going on...
i m really sorry if i made any of u unhappy
if i did anything wrong pls forgive me
to rus (if u still come here...) :
sry tat i m falling sick on n off...
will try to recover asap so tat i can finish the FYP... =)
will heed ur advise...trying to change...
i will continue to walk down this road... n emerge a better man..
thx alot.. sry i'm such a jerk =(
hope we're still frens...tho i noe i hav no right to ask tat
if u think tat there r areas tat i shud change...juz tell me straight
to all my friends:
i m sry if i m kinda depressed n aloof...
guess i juz need sometime to get over it...
if i did sth tat made u guys angry or unhappy...
i hope its not to late to say sry
i m a simple n easy going lil' fella
i juz 1 2 hav frens...
frens whom i can hang out wif...
simple? i dun think this is easy to achieve...
i would say tat a good fren is hard to come by... not to mention tat a buddy will be harder
have been falling sick on n off the past few weeks
to tell the truth... i din exactly do very well for the previous semester...
have not been sleeping well...
reason? its my family...
i hav not told many ppl except frens i considered buddy...
it seems tat my family is still picking on me...
it started b4 my grandpa pass away =
after he is gone...it simply became worse
i duno y...i tried asking...no direct answers...
i m not close to them... coz tats wad they molded me into =izzit my fault? yes... i shud hav tried harder to communicate wif them
i m still trying, but i hardly get the chance to talk to them
even when i do... its when i got scolded or blamed for sth i din do...
i guess tats life..
because of tat i hav been losing sleep...spending each nite in deep thoughts
maybe eating out for every meal wasn't too gd for my health?
but wad can i do? they nv cook for me.. T_T
n if i were to cook... they will scold me again... >_< wtf!
bo bian...eat out lor =S
so i guess tat 2 reasons above has been causing me to fall sick on n off
haiz... perhaps because of tat i hav been trying to occupy myself wif tkd
i began keeping to myself n more withdrawn... =/
maybe some of u find tat i juz follow ard n u guys dun lyk it...
i m sry... i juz realise tat... hope its not too late =(
i juz thought tat i would be rude of me to juz say things out...? my bad...
i m trying to change... will u guys help me? will anyone help me?
perhaps it is too late... i can only blame myself for being such a pathetic maggot
because of tat i hav lost many frens
frens who were hard to come by
i din realise wads happening till its too late
i'm sorry...