Monday, February 20, 2006
omg problem with renu contact lense solution!
recently my eyes very itchy...den i stop wearing my contact lenses for this period of time...
lucky siah...
hope i wun have any problem with my eyes.. >_<
so scary..
hmm...getting the hang of not wearing glasses during sparring le...
but i dun dare to let go n spar...
i scared later i injure my opponent... -_-'''
haiz...
examz coming...so stress...
no pimples popping out yet....
just mentally tired...
no matter how much i slp its not enough...
hmm...mummy threw the solution away le...now dunno how.. -_-'''
sianz...
8:55 AM
Sunday, February 19, 2006
oh fuk..wadeva..
examz nxt week..
gotta eat more books >_<
hmm...
parents bias...always ask me to do this n that..
even though i m busy... >_<
my bro so free..dun ask him do...wtf
so bias lor...wadda do...
haiz...
actually i'm getting used to it liao lar...
they have always been lyk tat since i could remember..
my examz coming so we got study break to study at home..
so they keep asking me to do this n that...
wtf...why dun they ask their precious son to do it..
m i not their son?
why such different treatment?
he get new clothes n wadeva he wants...
i get sth special from them also...scolding...tons n tons of it..
i tried treating them well..
they took it for granted...
they nv treat me lyk their son...
but at least i have a shelter over my head..
clothes to keep me warm..n food to eat...
but yet..i nv felt any warmth from this family..
i'm so jealous of others...yet i noe tat i can be considered fortunate...
they expect me to take care of them when they are old...wad abt my bro?
he gotta take care of them too...
they nv said anything abt it..
i'm treated so poorly...yet they expect so much from me..
they treat him lyk super good..yet they expect nothing from him...
haiz...
can't even stay at home to study...
bring my darling home oso got so much trouble..wth
my mum..always ask me to do housework...
never even ask my bro to help...
expect me to finish everything when i m so stressed..
she nv wanted to compromise...
haiz...wadeva...
i dun care anymore..
she dun 1 2 ask my bro to help? den i wun do oso >_<
7:25 PM
Thursday, February 16, 2006
I am scared
what of? you might ask
I don't know
I don't know what is it that send fear rippling through my heart
that feeling coursing through my body
i can't help it
what is it that i m afraid of?
i seriously don't know
that feeling is simply spine wrenching..
i have no i dea what is causing it
examz? TKD? relationship?
i seriously dun think so..
its driving me nuts...
perhaps if i ignore it..it might go away?
hahaha...i'll try
hmm...i will train harder in my tkd..
haha..
btw i wear contact lenses during training..
but i realise that i already have what it takes to spar
so why not take it to a higher level?
spar without my glasses or contact lenses =)
tats what i thought
oh well..
juz in case i got ambushed or wad so eva...
hahaha..
juz to train myself such tat i can still fight without my glasses.. =D
they are kinda troublesome u noe...
to hone my senses n reflexes...to push myself to the limit >_<
to learn how to control my strength..
during the hols i'll train 6 hours a day... >_<
excluding sunday of coz...hahaha
i'll train with gugu (dun run...i'll help u...hahaha)
on some days i'll go out with darling..
other than that, i'll train..
i'll push myself to the limit >_<
but in the meantime...i'll chiong my examz.. >_<
7:39 AM
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
hmm...exams are over...for now...
next week is break...to prepare for FINALS
week after next is my FINAL EXAM!
omg...going nuts... >_<
just now tat match before class end... i pulled back so much...
shout louder niah..
den they say i nv pull back... =(
c'mon...i'm trying hard n learning how to pull back as much as i can already..
this is the 2nd time i spar without glasses...
n tats y i keep missing... =X
think i scored 0 points... =(
if i wear glasses/ never pull back tat guy is dead!
why no1 believe me? T_T
it doesn't help when u ppl keep saying tat i din pull back...
i dun nid so many of u to tell me tat i nv pull back
it would be better if u guys can tell me how to pull back more... teach me..
i'm trying very hard to pull back...
shout loud does not mean i kick hard..
so stop nagging tat i din pull back...
i m training "soft" on it...someone help me....! T_T
no1 trust tat i pulled back...not even darling... =(
really sad...after tat match i went to sit down
den u ppl keep saying...i really pull back alot le lor...
why can't you ppl believe me... >_<
if its lyk tat i rather dun spar... den wads the point of learning TKD >_<
after class i asked sir for advice on how to pull back...
den wanted to go back to change my clothes...
only to see Yong Quan so close to darling...so jealous... >_<
i dunno why i feel this way...when i change my clothes...
tat Yong Quan keep saying tat i nv pull back...
scare all the kids n stuff... say tat i lyk 1 2 kill those kids lyk tat...
keep saying so much crap
i already said tat i pulled back...
since u guys dun believe me den i also dun 1 2 talk about it anymore...
say so much for wad?nobody believe tat i got pull back wad...
talk so much for wad...?
worse thing is tat even darling oso help Yong Quan... T_T
I really cannot take it...
i really felt lyk crying at tat point of time...
i m really tired... all the exams n shit...maybe going crazy ba...so stressed...
I can't take it anymore...
I'm so tired...what should i do... T_T
9:22 AM
Sunday, February 12, 2006
hmm...tmr got a paper and i m blogging?
tats coz its for my Charlene gugu (little aunt)...
she has been lyk a princess in the Big Family...
we kinda grew up together... though we usually see each other only during CNY
she is very pretty...lyk all my other aunts (duh...) she is my aunt wad...it runs in the family..
though i must admit i inherited that tint of blurness... =(
oh well...back to the main point...
she has been attached to this guy for lyk...er...God knows how long..
and this guy is lyk...er...over possessive...
now she is going kinda nutty abt it...sad huh...
pardon my limited vocab...have been try to work on it...
at least i dun go ard scolding F**K...
unlike someone... LOL! =X
upgrading my cotton brain...filling it with love and less of those evil stuff... =)
thats thanks to my darling... =]
okok...so i m off the topic again...
FINE! smack me lar! i m made from top-grade cotton...i wun feel physical pain... =D
to Charlene
aka. Princess Woody Bubble Horny Talisman Tail :
( for now... *panting... such a long title...)
hey ger! ur taggy too short to post everything lar...so i post it here...see le tag k...den i update again... =P
so in the meanwhile....just bear it with me k..
din noe that u had some problems tat fri lor...
if not ask u to accompany me for my dinner... =D
so long nv eat with u le...
fold a turtle for me again k...hahahaha...
n teach me how to fold a butterfly oso wor... >_<
i forgot how to do it the day after u taught me... =P
still say...ur fault lar...infected my ur blurness...
wadda do it runs in our blood rite...LOL!
u think i m more matured den u ar...
its lyk duh.... =P
ok lar...i m when i need to...
i still a kid k...
dun expect too much from me... >_<
stressful life of singapore....when will i get over it... >.< argh.....
if he is nice to you and still is...and you find him possessive...den...
tell him nicely...
if he realy loves you, then he should change and stop doing those stuff to you and your frens...
but then again...
if the frens tat u r mixing with are lyk ah beng/ah seng...
or if u r dressing lyk...too...revealing? den can't blame him...
though i dun believe you are that kinda gal...
always believed tat my gugu is a nice n sweet gal tats kinda conservative...
though i dunno wad u mean by 'playing' with ur frens, but perhaps you should watch ur steps as well...
if you are really getting physically too close, or perhaps he is just too conservative...
you noe...just watch wad u r doing lor... =)
hope u r not holding a guy's hand n hope that he wun mind tat.... >_<
coz got 2 guy keep disturbing my darling also...
i told them to keep off...
1 was from her sch...the other was from tkd...
she din lyk both...not frens...nth...
n they keep calling n disturbing her...so its alrite for me to chase them away n protect her...
in ur case...tat person is ur fren? close fren? guy rite? =u should advise ur guy not to do tat lor...coz if he do tat to me...i might report him to police liao...
dun think there is a problem with the way u dress ar... =/
wad duh hell he wants? wear a spacesuit so no one can touch n see u ar? >_<
i only told my darling to be careful when she is wearing a skirt... =X
scared she careless den...ya..u noe the rest lar...
you 2 got sit down and talk anot?
it might get it over and done with...for ur own good...
either solve the problem...or get over it... =understand anot...? wei...dun go teary over this k... >_<
later eyes puffy den not nice le... =(
if you ask him anything and he only "mm...mm..."
den say him lar...wads the problem...instead of making u happy...giv u so much trouble... >_<
dun worry u got US! got jiajia gugu n many gugus... =)
got me to maple with u...if i got time.. =p
c'mon...u deserve a guy better than him...
i dunno...i haven met him b4... n i better dun...coz if he ill treat my gugu... i will scold him up down left rite n center...
i dunno if he is nice looking or wadeva...
i dunno wad draws u to him...
there are guys out there who will treat u way better...
u see...u r smart n pretty...talented...duh...my gugu wad...
there are lots of guys for u to choose from...
the one thats meant for u...
are u sure its him?
the one that will complement you and make u happy everyday
the one that you think of most of the time..the one who cared for you...
who standby you when u r down...
if it is not him den...
i dunno...its your life...u decide wad to do k...
just dun hurt urself again...
sometime...its better to hurt ppl lyk him...wakes them up...make them realise what they have missed...
this kinda thing choose carefully lor...
u r our BIG PRINCESS you noe...
if this kinda sad thing happen alot of us will feel sad for u oso de lor... =(
u r young...going 20!
still young...dun waste time on such a guy if he is not good enough for you...
I remember that I started out with my darling ard the same time as u n tat guy....
hmm...
since that day...
my darling was only unhappy coz she thought i dun care for her and dun love her anymore...
first time :
was at a TKD exchange program...
coz i lost to a 2nd Dan black belt...
was pretty shocked...tats why i nv talk to her...was trying to get over it...
alone...how silly...i realised i shouldn't have done so alone...
she thought sth happen to me and got so worried..
2nd time:
coz i was late...caught in the traffic...n she could not find me when she got down to her void deck... she was worried n she cried...
kinda silly...i noe...but it shows that she cares alot for me.. =)
she called from the cc and asked where i was...i could hear that her voice was trembling...i rushed over...i just reached her void deck...den i rushed over immediately...
both of us was worried sick abt each other... >_<
she thought i dun care for her tats y she can't find me...
n i thought she was kidnapped or sth...
lol...in the end i coax her n pamper her...
and we spend the day happily...
since then...such a crazy thing nv happen again... NEVER WILL! >_<
i let her knew how important she is to me and that i really love her alot... =)
her parents knew abt us... and nv oppose us... =)
since then we have been happy till now...
i only discouraged her from mixing with bad companies...
protect her from those ppl...
tats all...
i think that your boyfriend feels insecured ba...
coz he has no confidence in himself...
n coz u r too good...
he scared later u let ppl snatch away.. so he is overly "protective"
wadeva it is...if u dun love him anymore...than make it short...
dun let it drag on..coz you will end up blaming urself if u see him hurt badly when its not ur fault... =if u dun think tat he is tat suitable for u den let it end lor..
since he dun even dare to let his parents know abt the relationship...
c'mon he should be feeling lucky that u r his galfren lor...
he should have treated u better n cherish u more...
at the end of the day...it is ur life...
do wad u want with it...it ur own choice...wad u decide..will affect the outcome
dun hurt urself...
we're rooting for you!
alrite...tats all for now... hehehe... can't imagine taggy all these...or worse...sms...
i think my free sms used up liao lor...so long...hahaha =X
8:11 AM
Monday, February 06, 2006
I always believed that If you want to do something, do your best
If not, don't bother to waste your time and other people's time
If you don't do well, you have only yourself to blame...
Treat people the way you want to be treated
Do not look down on others, because you are no where better
It doesn't hurt to be good to people around you
Live life as if there is no tomorrow
Cherish the people around you, because you never know when they will leave you
Respect each other and treat them like you would your own family
We can make this world a better place to live in
this is my way...
this is my life...
this is my world...
it revolves around me...
in my life...i am the leading actor...
i m the main character...
i seek the best ending for me and the one I love...
when you bitch about other people, they might be doing the same thing to you
you have no right to judge others, because you are nothing
you have no right to laugh at others, because you are just as bad
without you, this world will still keep spinning and life will still go on...
how much are you worth?
are you even worth anything?
what makes you think that you are that great?
Because compared to others, you are nothing
don't mess with me...
i may look like a pup from far...
but if u get too close u, will see who i really am...
what i really am...
wad you see may not necessarily be the truth...
always look at things from a different perspective...
just because i dun get angry doesn't mean that i wun...
DON"T MESS WITH MY LIFE!
because only a fool will try his luck with me
8:54 AM
Friday, February 03, 2006
eh..at least i not lyk Don k...
lol...
even comic oso monthly de wad..
magazines oso lor...
so u guys stayed for the DNA pendant booth for how long...
shiok mah?
after i left got chio bu anot?
i was already late lor...
haiz..if i knew tat so many ppl nv turn up i wun giv it a dam lor...
so GY...waste so much of my time...
haiz..
could have slept the whole day lor..
so u ppl collected alot of ang bao for CNY anot?
CT2 and other stuff coming up liao...how?
gan chiong siah...
cannot take it lar..
so tiring lor...
I NEED A BREAK!
this week got no tkd training..
so sianz...
so slack...eat n get fat niah
hahaha..
lots of pineapple tarts..n wadeva snack i could lay my hands on... =p
lets eat!
eat n grow fat wif me =)
10:24 AM